December 2008
67 posts
hey, did you know that you make my heart spin?...
my neck hurts
and I’m kind of in a state of emotional wreckage right now, but in a good way.
yes, wreckage can be good. “I’m already a mess, but you love me right? Doesn’t that mean that you want to see me turn into a complete wreckage?” - KIERA KNIGHTLEY
I’m off to bed.
g’night
you fit in my heart so perfectly. it's almost as...
could you?
INCUBUS - “southern girl”
Is everything a baited hook? And are there locks on all doors? If you’re looking for an open book Look no further, I am yours We’ll behave like animals Swing from tree to tree We can do anything That turns you up and sets you free You’re an exception to the rule You’re a bonafide rarity You’re all I ever wanted Could you want me?...
don't you see that the charade is over?
my heart honestly aches. it aches. it aches. I need you here. I miss you, miss you, miss you, love you, miss you.
I’ll be thinking of you tonight…. you are everything.
Something I wrote in 2006:
havent-got-a-prayer:
bananasareyellow:
I dream of succeeding and avoiding failure, trouble and misfortune. This is not a crime at all, is it? I hope I am not mistaken. All I want is to expand my capabilities and my knowledge to a greater value that well maybe, I could meet new people and they could see me as an interesting person. I learned to value other people’s accomplishments and possessions...
lyrics to "the best deceptions" by dashboard...
absolutely amazing. although this doesn’t really apply to my situation right now, it’s such a heartfelt song. the chorus is so powerful.
I heard about your trip. I heard about your souvenirs. I heard about the cool breeze, in the cool nights, And the cool guys that you spent them with. Well I guess I should have heard of them from you. I guess I should have heard of them from you....
I love you rae! hahahaha.
(me eating a plate of pasta with a massive amounts of cheese)
Me: You know what?
Rachael: What?
Me: Cheese makes the world go round. I mean, seriously... it's freaking delicious!
Rachael: Yeah, it makes everyone go ROUND, Kayla.
(10 minutes later)
Me: HA, that's awfully true...
I miss you.
I miss you, so much. I’m sorry about all of the things I said earlier. But in a way, tonight made me feel like it doesn’t matter. Simple words can be discarded, especially the ones I said to you that night. Because the electric feeling I got everytime you reached for my head cancels out every negative thing I can ever imagine feeling about this relationship. You’ve given me a...
I don't want to set the world on fire... I just...
(via treebee)
this is part of an email that i just received. i...
havent-got-a-prayer:
I’ve learned that everything that I dislike in a person is what I dislike in me, and that everything that I like is synonymous to that one person. I’ve learned to talk less and hear more; to listen carefully and pay attention to details, no matter how minor they are. I’ve learned that people come and go, and it’s only up to you and very important to maintain them, even in your...
follow-up to previous post
I’d like to give credit for most of the posts that didn’t care to recognize him to haven’t-got-a-prayer.
if you stumble upon this, I hope you know that you are absolutely inspiring and amazing. whenever I read a new post of yours, I always find something new and refreshing to think about.
I hope you have success with your recovery. I send all my hopes for success to you, with a...
note to people reading my posts,
for some odd reason which I CANNOT IDENTIFY for the life of me, in my last 2 weeks of posts or so (after all, I haven’t had this thing for too long), my reblog’s weren’t coming up (and - I’m still new at all this tumblr lingo too). so, I apologize profusely and to the greatest extent possible if I reblogged a post of yours and the reblog thing/situation isn’t there. I...
Sometimes
sashas:
I try too hard to fit in against my true self or my true beliefs, to only realize that there are people out there who think just like me, and are totally accepted for it.
So I learned that I can act like myself. I don’t have to pretend or put up fake fronts or interests. It was one mistake I made early on when college started. That wasn’t being fair to myself, at all.
I don’t know why...
I just had one of those moments... one of those...
Death Cab for Cutie - A Lack of Color
And...
I always want more than I have.
I don’t know why things aren’t ever good enough. I set expectations; and when they are met, I still feel discontent. I try to tell myself that this is just part of the human condition, but it’s getting to the point where I’m not so sure anymore.
Nice to know you... Goodbye.
I don’t want you the way I want to. And you don’t want me the way I want you to. You won’t hold me like I want to be held. And you don’t whisper to me any sweet things. You don’t wonder what my heart does. My heart wants what yours doesn’t. You don’t look at me with eyes I want looking. You look at me and see me naked. I look at you and see nothing. Your words don’t linger, its like they weren’t...
“Consider the following. We humans are social beings. We come into the world as...”
– His Holiness the Dalai Lama (via sqpeg) (via booksarebetterthanboys) (via fishy) (via havent-got-a-prayer)
cracked foundations.
I am driven up and down walls by these feelings and temptations. I drive myself mad with searching and I only feel dirty in the end. My head is too small a place for these clouds, and I haven’t slept a bit. Stuck in the eye and waiting for it all to come crashing down. Swirling winds in every direction, and no place to go but up. Thoughts are heavier than tombstones. It’s all relevant, but I...
taking the world as it is, and not as i would have...
Life brings us to heights that are unimaginable, and drops us beyond the ocean floor. It carries us on on apathetic winds and takes us to places we never thought we’d end up. We fight it and try to control which direction our kites will go. Exhausted and beat, the waves still have their way.
Empires will fall and forests will burn; still we carry our cards and play them accordingly. These...
“We come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an...”
– Angelina Jolie
“I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to...”
– anonymous
“Why should we live with such hurry and waste of life?
We are determined to be...”
– Henry David Thoreau
fricken fuck
I feel like barfing. yuck. this holiday-after shit sucks. I feel gross and shit is just so… fucking fuck! alright, let’s try this again using no explitives. life is just so ridiculously stupid. I mean, ughhhh.
okay, bye.
so can I?
There comes a time where we meet someone, and we just know. We can hear it in their voice, we can see it in the way they smile, and in the way they look at you. During one of your own smiles, you catch yourself and realize that you feel this way just because that other person is just being themselves.
I want so bad to know if I can tell you that you’re that person to me.
“Please don’t give up on me. Because underneath all my mistakes, imperfections,...”
New Years Resolutions
1. Change someone’s life. 2. Try to do a good deed every day. 3. Stop assuming that I’ve messed up. 4. Find answers for every question. 5. Learn to breathe in and out… find a calm in my mind. 6. Try to show compassion. 7. Make someone feel loved. 8. Stop talking to myself when I get lonely. 9. Convince my parents I am a good human being. 10. Think of better resolutions for next year.
something about love.
Love is not that perfect little thing in movies and books, all wrapped up in it’s pretty package and holiday paper. No, love is scarred. Love is terrifying. Love rises and falls, leaving it’s survivors to cower in the wake. Love comes with chains and rejoicing. Love is flawed and perfect. It comes when we are not expecting it, and hides behind dumpsters when we search for it. Love is...
it's december twenty fourth
Me: Is it really Christmas Eve?
Rachael: Yes.
Me: Fuck...
Rachael: What?
Me: That means Christmas is tomorrow, doesn't it?
So watch your head and then watch the ground...
LOVE. It is the hardest and most rewarding thing...
dreaming. . .
Do you ever wake from a dream and wish you hadn’t? It had been such a nice scene, but then your eyes opened and your mind was pulled out of sleeping bliss. Maybe you were in love, leaning in for that sensual touch or a beautiful kiss. Maybe your heart was pounding with the thrill of the chase, and the adventure was ended all too soon. Maybe you found yourself unexplainably happy. Everything was...
If I could say exactly what I wanted to for one...
I’m not going to say to who, but they’re all to different people…
I love you. I wish I was you. I want to breathe you in, every day. You did a great job, seriously. Stop making yourself the victim. Do you really see where I’m coming from? Why don’t you actually care? You silly, silly, silly girl. I love you. I wonder what life would be like if I had you. You are my everything,...
“Just throw me away, and let me be.
It’s not easy, but I feel fine....”
– - lyrical inspiration from Tegan and Sara.
it's yours
reblogged from some chick. these are pretty amazing.
the spot where your hand rests -where my hip meets my thigh- when we sleep it’s yours
the small of my back -where your hands lock to pull me close- while we’re in line at the movies it’s yours
the place on my wrist -where my pulse races at your touch- that you kiss and make me forget my name it’s yours
the space in my heart -where love...
buenos noches, baby.
I’m going to bed. This has been a fucking long ass day. I’m pretty drained. Hopefully tomorrow won’t suck cock balls… like school usually does… goodness. School makes me lose faith in humanity, really. Anywho. I’m gonna sign off with some fucking sweet lyrics by Incubus. And in other news, I really wish texting had the ability to insert italics. That would be...
Oh, to remain...
I read this today. And I agree with it wholeheartedly.
If I could, I’d pack my bags and head somewhere new. I’d bid farewell to the people I know and start a new chapter. It’d be nice, but it’s not possible at this time. The money aspect is only one reason, and also the least important. The truth is, I am just so tired. I’ve been shuffled around for so long, and now that I’m grounded I’d like to...